26 May 2015
What was it like to live apart from God? What was it like not to receive a Word from God? What was it like to choose not to heed His will for your life? What was it like to choose not to listen closely to what He is telling us?
It was all messed up. I become such a huge failure. I was irresponsible. I was disrespectful. I was loud, really loud. My mind is constantly bombarded by unclean thoughts. It was insane! My spirit was uneasy. I feel like I am looking for something but can’t seem to find it. I tried to find the solutions to my problems online, tried to use mobile applications to manage my resources but nothing worked. I tried to find it in social media but it wasn’t there. I tried to find approval of the people around me but it wasn’t enough, I wasn’t enough. I heard His voice telling me that He and I should talk but I ignored it, telling Him that I am okay, that nothing is wrong and that I got everything under control. I still go on with my own way. I even told God that I know He’ll be there no matter what, that He will still bless me and my plans anyway. I prayed, but it was a very self-centered prayer. Since then, I could not hear Him anymore. I knew I was doing something wrong, something that is not pleasing to Him. But I was stubborn.
I did not know that I was stubborn, or at least I deny it. Every now and then I pray and my soul was crying out to God, “Lord, why are you so silent? What is it I’m doing that is not pleasing You? Please tell me! I want to hear You! What am I doing wrong? Why is everything falling apart?” Still I do not receive any answer, and I became more stubborn. Yes, I did pray but I was not humbling myself. I was demanding Him to answer.
Then one day, my friend told me that we should be constantly reading the Word, that is one powerful way that God speaks to us. That’s it! READ THE BIBLE! I have completely forgotten about the Bible! What a hypocrite! I call myself a Christian but I have forgotten about the Bible?!
I opened the Bible today then God finally answered all my self-centered and demanding prayers by reminding me how to pray to Him;
“ 9 How can young people keep their lives pure? By obeying Your commands.
10 With all my heart I try to serve you: keep me from disobeying Your commandments.
11 I keep Your law in my heart, so that I will not sin against You. “
Psalm 119:9-11 (GNTD)
Remember that life is all about Him not us, that our lives should always point to nothing else but Him. Him, who is our Creator, the Author of life itself, the First and the Last, the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End, the One who was, who is and is to come, the Almighty. HALLELUJAH! PRAISE BE TO GOD!
Living apart from God is exhausting. We carry everything in our shoulders, thinking that we are great and that we can do everything without His help. But seriously, that is the biggest lie we could ever tell ourselves. We will just find ourselves justifying everything that we do is correct and righteous only to wake up one day realizing that nothing is okay. But the Good News is, we have a Helper!
We don’t have to worry, to fear or to suffer anything. We don’t have to fight for the fight has already been won 2,000 years ago! All we need to do is to surrender everything at the foot of His Cross, trust in Him. Everything that we need will be provided by God Himself! We just need to do our best and offer it to Him. Everything that we need will come our way In His time, remember His timing is always perfect, that is one trait of God that makes Him so awesome! Every now and then we’ll receive a special delivery of gift from Him! We might think that we don’t need the gift but when we received it we’ll realize that that is what we needed the most.
Always remember that all things work together for the good of all those who love Him. Many people don’t understand it, especially for the non-believers. It’s very hard to explain to them because they don’t believe in God. So do not try to explain it to them because they will not believe you either. Just show them. Show them that you have faith, show them how strong your faith is, show them that You love Jesus, show them through the way you live your life, and eventually they’ll notice how everything in your life is falling into place effortlessly. Then when they asked you how that is possible, always point them to Jesus. 😉
So from this day forward, I choose to live for His name. I choose to walk with Him, to hold His hand tighter than I did before, to listen to the One who knows it all. I choose to surrender everything to Jesus, to trust Him in every season of my life.
For He, who is in Heaven, is the only way. Any other way or path leads to destruction. He is the only truth in this deceitful world. He is the only life to this dying world.
GLORY BE TO THE FATHER, AND TO THE SON, AND TO THE HOLY SPIRIT AS IT WAS IN THE BEGINNING, IS NOW AND FOREVER SHALL BE, WORLD WITHOUT END. AMEN!